I could write a million thoughts in this space, stories about how I've tried to lose weight in the past, stories about the times I've been successful and the times that I haven't been. I don't want to look back any more, at times I feel as though I've spent my entire life looking backwards. Living mired in the regrets of what I didn't achieve, where I think I failed, how I could have done better. I would like to be done with looking back, instead I would like to only look forward, towards a new horizon and a new happiness.
I have three goals for May to help me move forward on my journey:
1. To complete another Whole30. Adhering to all the guidelines set forth in It Starts With Food, save one. In order to help with portion control and overeating (something I struggle with at every meal) I will be tracking my points via Weight Watchers and weighing in every week. Though in the spirit of the Whole30 I won't post my weight here until the 30 days are up.
2. To complete 20 Pure Barre classes in 30 days. Pure Barre is the only workout I have truly loved since my last dance class in college. I was successfully going daily late last year, but once again found myself squarely inside my own head and pretty quickly I stopped going. However, Pure Barre brought me a peace that I rarely am able to find, and it was honestly one of the most welcoming and supportive environments I have encountered. So, 20 classes in 30 days.
3. To blog/journal my thoughts daily. Writing is part of me, and much like spending time at the barre, when I spend time putting words to paper my head is clearer and I function better.
So with head up and heart open I place my foot on the ground.
A single step forward.